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There's an abandoned part of the city that Kaworu is fond of. Well, all parts of Tokyo-3 were abandoned, really. That's just what happens when the entire human race defaults back to a primordial soup type substance.

But he likes this particular block, in no small part than because it has a useful pharmacy right underneath a useful clinic. Of course there are no pharmacists, no nurses and no doctor, but this doesn't trouble him any. Kaworu knows how to take care of himself with the resources offered to him.

But at the moment, he needs to take care of someone else. He's led Miharu all the way from the beach and now it's time to look at that shoulder. All he really needs is the pharmacy, today.

"Sorry it's messy," Kaworu says, as he leads the way in. "That's kinda what happens after the apocalypse."

Heh.

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"You can still hold yourself to standards," Miharu remarks. "Even if hardly anyone else is around to care."

Not that it is that messy, anyhow. The medicine, for example, is in perfect condition. But then, that would make sense, considering. Kaworu has been far more careful lately and it is most likely due to the sudden presence of his sister and her medical needs as well.

Honestly, it leaves Miharu impressed every time he encounters some sort of evidence of it.

"It hurts but I doubt it is anything that bad. It hurt far more when I hurt my hand."

That was a good specification on its own, considering.

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"I'm sure a lot of things hurt more than this," Kaworu says. "That does not mean I'm going to skimp on helping you deal with it."

He ducks in back of a counter and kneels down, staring into a cabinet of medication. "It'll be a lottery of sorts as to what you get, though."

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"You are going to poison me," Miharu says. "And I will let you do it."

He is resigned.

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Kaworu blinks and peers around the counter at that.

"Why would you let me?"

Huh.

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"Because," Miharu says, his tone reasonable. "You are the one that, if you did so, it would be for a good reason."

Whyever is this line of conversation making his heart faster, too loud for his own liking? The logic is missing from the situation.

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Kaworu has absolutely no idea what to make of this.

"Come here," he says. It's not actually a command, but it is served as one.

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"Alright."

Miharu knows better than to contradict Kaworu's not-commands. It is better to save his energy for other types of contradictions.

As such, he obeys. It is not very far to walk, anyway.

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"What is going on?"

Kaworu not only lets himself sound puzzled but worried as well. He puts the bottle he'd taken ahold of back on the shelf; it falls on its side and spins a little in place, the contents thankfully not spilling out. He's not paying attention to it, anyway.

"And don't say it's nothing. I know better than that."

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"I don't know," Miharu says, his voice a little hoarse.

That's a lie. He does.

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"Of course you do," Kaworu says. He stands up and dusts his hands off on his pants. "I'm not stupid. Sit."

Somewhere, anywhere.

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Miharu obeys, though he really does not want to. There is, thankfully, a chair nearby. Does that, perhaps, work well?

He is not excited about any of this. Kaworu was supposed to let him be stupid.

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But that was never Kaworu's style.

He places a hand on the backing of Miharu's adopted chair, leaning in a little from the front. "Okay," he says, "Now tell me."

He smiles. "Remember that I'm the one that will be fixing you."

Fft.

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"Back off."

As Miharu never really learns, he attempts to push Kaworu away again, just as he had done before. It is less likely to cause bodily harm, this time...?

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"No," Kaworu retorts. "Not unless you make me."

And he just stays right there.

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One has to suppose that nobody had ever really said that Miharu had prime physical strength.

"Leave me alone," he says, and slouches down in the chair.

Sigh.

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"Of course I will," Kaworu says in a reasonable tone of voice. "Once you tell me what the hell is going on."

He shrugs and grabs that pill bottle from before. "I'll fix you once this kicks in," he says, and hands over water and medicine.

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Miharu accepts what is being handed to him but then he merely stares at the floor.

These tactics are working quite well on him, it seems!

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"Miharu," Kaworu Says.

"Are you attempting to prove that I am not a wild horse?"

Wild horses can't drag it out of me~!

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"Kaworu," Miharu says, seemingly all of a sudden, "Do you ever think of Tabris?"

Or Adam.

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"........what?"

That is enough to stop Kaworu in his tracks, and it does so.

"I can't seem to grasp what you're asking."

Or perhaps he doesn't want to.

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"I know that you held things from me," Miharu says in an even voice. Far too even, far too bland - that will not last at all. "I realize the reasons why and in fact I agree with them.

But I still do not like that you did that." Miharu turns the pills around a few times on his hand, before giving up and taking them. Let us hope it is not actually poison, heh.

"So I want you to tell me something secret to make up for it. If you can do that, I will accept everything as 'alright'."

This is an unfair demand, but Kaworu's actions had been just as unfair. This is the time to make up for it, now.

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Kaworu's exhale is sharp and maybe a little surprised. But then, wouldn't anyone be?

"Anything?"

His voice is resigned.

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"Anything."

As long as it wasn't a lie.

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Asking for no lies from him was giving him quite a task. But it attests to Miharu's worth, that Kaworu will go through this willingly and with little prompt.

That just doesn't happen, okay?

He'd been pacing the room a little, but he stops now. He goes back to Miharu's chair with his tail between his legs. Trying to even think over this sort of thing isn't very pleasant. And it's at least five different shades of humbling in many occasions.

"I'm disappointed that Gendo Ikari died when he did," Kaworu says. "Because that meant I did not have a chance to do it myself. I was born in a vacuum, an utter lack of air or heat or cold. I am one of the prototypes for the human race. I would destroy the world if Rei asked me to, and I would enjoy it, because it was for her - "

Such and such. Tastes of various things, though he is stumbling over himself now. And:

" - I did not learn about emotions until months ago - "

More, more...

" - I did not tell Yoite I had found you, not just for safety, but - "

But... but...

" - you would have left - "

...

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And now it's enough to make him believe he had done the wrong thing.

"Stop, stop-" Miharu insists. He grabs ahold of Kaworu's sleeve, insistently pulling on it. "Come here-"

He has, in fact, succeeded in prompting a situation that shook him more than he would admit.

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"What," Kaworu says, conceding to let himself be pulled, "Is that enough for it? Do I need to do something else - I would - "

He would.

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"Of course it is enough," Miharu says. "I'm sorry -" He takes ahold of the front of Kaworu's shirt, now; the pull this time is intended to make him lean over. " - I'm sorry - "

He does not know how to prove his sincerity. He does not. Of course Miharu could use his one idea, what he has buried for a very long time now. That which he has not stopped thinking about ever since he met with Kaworu again, not even an hour earlier.

He holds on tighter to Kaworu's shirt and pulls again. It does not take very long at all for him to act.

"I am sorry, angel... You have done more than enough."

Miharu smiles weakly, the expression not reaching his eyes nor tone.

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Kaworu is just going to move on by burying that whole little piece of dinner theatre in the part of his brain marked 'de nile'.

if nothing else they each made the other feel bad with some sort of action. Even now, yeah?

"You're manhandling me around." Why? and he raises an eyebrow.

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"You're letting me."

Really now.

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"Are you going to do something that I shouldn't let you do?"

Ooooh, challenge!

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"Nothing more than you have just done," Miharu says vaguely.

The confessions... the truth... honestly, likely allowing himself to be punched...

Ideas are forming in Miharu's head, soon he will make something of them.

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Siiiilence.

And perhaps a raised eyebrow, as well. Kaworu really doesn't have anything to go on, here.

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He will have something to go on now, as Miharu does something he has never done before.

Miharu kisses him.

Perhaps it seems mild compared to all the other things they have gone through with each other, towards each other or apart. It is the first time he has done that to anyone, really; all the neuroses involved has prevented him before. Therefore it is a higher compliment than it may seem.

For once, Miharu feels entirely confident in dealing it.

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That may or may not have made this player shriek like a little girl.

Thankfully, Kaworu is not prone to that sort of thing. It doesn't matter, to him, whether or not he has been kissed before. Somehow the experience makes him feel novice all over again, which is... not an unwelcome feeling.

Maybe this is an effect of the painkiller (and if so, Kaworu can convince him it was a hallucination) or maybe Miharu actually meant it. He doesn't know yet. All he knows is what he does, and in that, Kaworu can only concentrate on the act. He kisses Miharu himself, when the first kiss is over, just to make sure he stays there.

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Of course Miharu is not objecting to that. Nor is he having the split-second regrets. No: in a way, it feels like this has been coming for a long time,

whatever it is.

"What does this mean?" he finds himself asking, when he has the chance. Miharu may have been the one to start it, but he has absolutely no clue what 'it' is.

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"I think," Kaworu says, pauses over his own words, and then tries again. "I think maybe it means that I should be asking you out for a date."

How incredibly normal.

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"Oh," Miharu says, with a slight hint of a smile. "Okay."

How incredibly normal.